It's 2015 now
I was having fun in the between 2013-2014 (i guess?)
This year, i realise i have lost something important
I don't really know what is it and i hope i can find out asap
But what i know is, I have lost some essential emotion and feelings
How did i lost it? i dunno
And yes, i have suffered quite alot without them.
Not only me, but also those ppl who are close to me

Sorry baobei
Sorry for forcing u to be someone u r not
Sorry tat i couldn't sort out my feeling well for u yet
I'm trying to figure out wat is love?
What m i seeking for?
Y things have changes so much? ( in terms of my needs and wants)
I need to find my answer soon.
Or else things will end up bad
But i have realise that something more about us these few days
The way we talk and the way we "have fun" are very different
If we r so different, is it still possible for us to be tgt 4ever?

It pains me to see u trying so hard for me while im emotionless
I'm constantly thinking of how i should react and feel
But what i know is that i will try my best to love u =)
Although i know that i dun deserve u
But, i believe feeling can be developed ( I think)

However, things are different from the past
we have changed so much that we don't even dare to touch or raise up the same old topic again
Anyway i have changed a lot
....
I'm bad at expressing my feeling n thoughts into words
I'm sorry
And thanks for sacrificing so much for me even though i hurt u so badly

I dunno what i want....want am i looking for? y am i searching for smt that i myself dunno wat is it?
Haiz