It's 2015 now
I was having fun in the between 2013-2014 (i guess?)
This year, i realise i have lost something important
I don't really know what is it and i hope i can find out asap
But what i know is, I have lost some essential emotion and feelings
How did i lost it? i dunno
And yes, i have suffered quite alot without them.
Not only me, but also those ppl who are close to me

Sorry baobei
Sorry for forcing u to be someone u r not
Sorry tat i couldn't sort out my feeling well for u yet
I'm trying to figure out wat is love?
What m i seeking for?
Y things have changes so much? ( in terms of my needs and wants)
I need to find my answer soon.
Or else things will end up bad
But i have realise that something more about us these few days
The way we talk and the way we "have fun" are very different
If we r so different, is it still possible for us to be tgt 4ever?

It pains me to see u trying so hard for me while im emotionless
I'm constantly thinking of how i should react and feel
But what i know is that i will try my best to love u =)
Although i know that i dun deserve u
But, i believe feeling can be developed ( I think)

However, things are different from the past
we have changed so much that we don't even dare to touch or raise up the same old topic again
Anyway i have changed a lot
....
I'm bad at expressing my feeling n thoughts into words
I'm sorry
And thanks for sacrificing so much for me even though i hurt u so badly

I dunno what i want....want am i looking for? y am i searching for smt that i myself dunno wat is it?
Haiz

I'm in a state of not knowing who m I anymore.
I'm scared of losing myself
I'm going insane soon
I have nth now
Everything is changing
I'm scared...
help me?
please..please?

I needs a reason to live.
I'm weak...
everything seems weird to me
am I still ok?
am I insane or sane?
I dunno

I cant make any decision nor I can think now
I feel like a cup of water.
Taking shapes in different containers.
I doesn't have any shapes
U can shape me
I couldn't shape myself
I will take the shape of any container

I'm losing control soon

help me..help
I'm so scared
I had a dream
I was totally insane....I cried...I laugh...in front of everyone
In that dream, the other me was standing at one corner...looking at myself with fear
What if i become like this one day?

I'm feeling dead.
I see no colours....
Why is it so dark in here?

I'm here
__________________________________________________
Help me
I doesn't wan to cross this line

Please.
I hate changes
I have seen enough...enough of it....
I wanted my happiness back
Everything is weird now
Stop it please...................................

asd
as
sadf
save me please?
Is there anyone here?
I hate strangers....

It's dark before
When u came in my life..I felt joy, happiness and fun
However when u r gone
I believe I will die
U saved me...at the same time u can kill me

I'm hiding everything behind..
I'm blind.
I can no longer see anything
I'm sorry

I love myself more than u..
I guess

What's dead, there is no way to revive it
What's gone, there is no way to get it back
I'm living, yet I'm dead
I'm sad, yet I'm happy
From family to strangers.
From everything to nothing

Just stop it

but

there is no way to stop it.

I' cold.
Sorry I'm dead in the inside
It hurts to care
It's painful to think
I'm sorry, yet I'm not

But, I'm sorry.

I'm no longer me

I've became a monster
I'm protecting myself too much. (I need to)

Sorry

A new blog. Yay!
haha
haha
haha
haha
haha

I'm happy =D ..yea I am

It's so empty
It's so blank
I see rainbow
But it's so far away from me

So beautiful..yet unreachable

This blog is a place for me to vent my unhappiness
I'll write crappy stuffs and shits
so..get out